Egg Study #4
6″ x 6″
oil on panel
© 2011 Tracy Wall
For the past few years I’ve not only had a yearly list of both personal and professional goals to accomplish, but I’ve also had a Word(s) of the Year. These end up being general themes with which I guide decision-making throughout the year.
Letting go of personal relationships can be a struggle for me. Even though logic is telling me to do so, my heart and my gut sometimes don’t get it (and maybe they shouldn’t). Some I just don’t want to let go.
The biggest ‘letting go’ had to do with my dog, my beautiful boy Spencer. He was my very soul and having to let go of him was my biggest challenge.
Not only did I have to let go of him, but my daily life also has been up-ended. I’m trying to readjust my sails as my routines just don’t seem right without him.
Mixed emotions arise. On the one hand, the new-found freedom is refreshing; on the other hand I feel lonely and guilty for appreciating the time. I miss him terribly. Still working on letting go of that.
This year past was also my most exciting (my opinion) growth in painting. I’m loving how my works are developing a recognizable looser style, and that I’m able to pull this off while I’m painting and not frustratingly recognizing this after completion. I’m better able to let go of having to nit-pick too many details, and can’t wait to see how this continues to grow. I’ve only just begun to actually see myself as an artist instead of someone who just ‘does some art’. Letting it go!
Those who know me know that clutter is my friend; I tend to accumulate things “just in case”. The past few months I’ve started letting go of things (clothes, objects, knick-knacks, etc) that I no longer feel the need to hang on to. Perhaps it’s a snowball effect where once you start letting go in one area, others tend to loosen as well.
I believe themes from previous years always stick with me as I continue to keep ‘Action’ and ‘Letting Go’ running in the back of my head. But now I’m reviewing and searching for my current needs and stumbling blocks to narrow down my focus on my 2011 word(s) of the year. Stay tuned…
This is a little painting study I did last night distinguishing between different whites. White egg in a white ‘soup mug’ on a white table. (And did I mention there’s white snow outside everywhere?)